The past few days went by in a blur of calls, cold meds,
flood of office emails, and the occasional skirmish or two. Had a lot of
thoughts and insights during this week, too.
Started the week with a little miscommunication that
hopefully, will not blow out of proportion nor extend into the next coming
days. Will continue to step up though, as long as I have the best intentions in
mind, and no aim to hurt nor belittle other people. Lesson learned.
Realized as well one fact of life: sometimes the hardest
thing to do is the best thing to do. We can’t run on emotions alone. Even the
Bible says the heart is untrustworthy. The brain and the heart have to work together; one is not superior over
the other, but there are times when one has to yield to the other. This time,
it pays to be smart. Well maybe not “smart,” but I guess “wiser” is more apt.
Felt kinda floating and far-off, as well. Like I belong
everywhere and nowhere. I wanted a sole person to be able to tell everything
without judgment, malice or wrong motives. Just plain, best-friendship. I was
alternately feeling crappy and buoyant all throughout the week (must be the
meds or might be bipolar?!), and while I have a lot of close friends to go to, I
realized I also have a lot of friends I am hesitant on approaching.
Lastly, I came across the phrase, “the gift of discernment”
and for some reason it stuck to me. Got me thinking if I have it. If not, then I
pray to God he heaps me with lots of it hahaha! Wikipedia defines discernment as such:
Discernment is the activity of determining
the value and quality of a certain subject or event, particularly the activity
of going past the mere perception of something and making detailed judgments
about that thing. As a virtue, a discerning individual is considered to possess wisdom, and be of good judgement; especially so
with regard to subject matter often overlooked by others.
I fervently hope – with God’s grace – that in everything I do,
I may be able to go beyond the face value of something, to be wise enough to
see what others don’t see right away, to peel off the layers and make good
judgments based on the truth.
*photo from themominitiative.com. No copyright
infringement intended.
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